Friday, October 14, 2011

A MOTHER'S GRACE QUARTERLY BLOG 9th edition


Well here we are some months later after a long stay at the state hospital and although my Joe has been doing okay, the voices still plague him! The meds will only go so far...we are in need of something else. I still firmly believe in diet, vits, and other natural remedies, and all that beautiful healing way, but unless someone can be on call for Joe 24/7 to help him deal with the voices in whatever means...it will end up staying the same as it is now...in and out of hospitals adjusting meds! In Joe's case and in most cases , this healing model doesn't work! I have researched and found a group called hearingvoices.org and I will contact them and maybe find a way to start a support group in Joe's area. I have also done some reading on Carl Jung...it all sounds good on the internet , but where are the people schooled in this? Has no one come up with some behavioral therapy for hearing voices? I will keep searching and talking and praying! For right now, my Joe took control in some way this past week and when the voices were so strong, he told his case manager he should go in the hospital because he didnt feel safe. That has never happened before and albeit scary, he took control...unfortunately the only answer was back in the hospital. But we pray.....

Thursday, May 26, 2011

A MOTHER"S GRACE QUARTERLY NEWSLETTER 8th Edition



Hello Sweet Souls,

Gosh it seems like forever since I have updated, but it is most certainly time! My Joseph is in the hospital yet again and has been for a few months. They are now probating him to the state hospital here in CT because the high dose of Clozaril isnt working as they had hoped! I heard the news and my heart didn't quite know what to do, but I think it always stops just a little every time there is a new development. I know as his mother and spiritual being that he needs to do what is best for himself, take his meds, eat right, find all the healing tools necessary to heal, and use them! I just pray we get to the core of what is inside my boy so we can help him heal it, but even with a thought disorder, my Joe has choices. I just wish there was a more healing place to go to than the state hospital. But that will be my wish and goal forever in my lifetime! So once again I must in some way and on some level let it be and let go in a healthy way. I love you Joseph and I ask all of you reading this to send Love and Light to my boy as I do every second of my life!


I want to share a beautiful poem my Bella who is now 12 wrote about her brother.





Reality and Fantasy


Your mind

is locked in a continuous battle between reality and fantasy.
It twists images into something abnormal.

Sees things only you can see.

Reality and Fantasy are bound together by a rigid rope.

You are struggling to cut through it and break free.
You have conversations with invisible people.

Are they real?

You think so.

Doctors boost up your medication...
350 milligrams

450 milligrams

650 milligrams

Will they ever stop?

Your heart

is kind
loving
and warm.
It can brighten up a room.

Your smile
shines---
is big

and makes me laugh.

I love it when you smile.

You are my brother

and I love you,
that is reality.

Your sister,
Bella