Hello Sweet Souls,
Gosh it seems like forever since I have updated, but it is most certainly time! My Joseph is in the hospital yet again and has been for a few months. They are now probating him to the state hospital here in CT because the high dose of Clozaril isnt working as they had hoped! I heard the news and my heart didn't quite know what to do, but I think it always stops just a little every time there is a new development. I know as his mother and spiritual being that he needs to do what is best for himself, take his meds, eat right, find all the healing tools necessary to heal, and use them! I just pray we get to the core of what is inside my boy so we can help him heal it, but even with a thought disorder, my Joe has choices. I just wish there was a more healing place to go to than the state hospital. But that will be my wish and goal forever in my lifetime! So once again I must in some way and on some level let it be and let go in a healthy way. I love you Joseph and I ask all of you reading this to send Love and Light to my boy as I do every second of my life!
I want to share a beautiful poem my Bella who is now 12 wrote about her brother.
Reality and Fantasy
Your mind
is locked in a continuous battle between reality and fantasy.
It twists images into something abnormal.
Sees things only you can see.
Reality and Fantasy are bound together by a rigid rope.
You are struggling to cut through it and break free.
You have conversations with invisible people.
Are they real?
You think so.
Doctors boost up your medication...
350 milligrams
450 milligrams
650 milligrams
Will they ever stop?
Your heart
is kind
loving
and warm.
It can brighten up a room.
Your smile shines---
is big
and makes me laugh.
I love it when you smile.
You are my brother
and I love you,
that is reality.
Your sister,
Bella
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