Update on my Joseph
Well it has been a long road, but the last 6 months have taken it's toll. My Joe has been in and out of the hospital more times in the last year then with this whole illness of 5 1/2 years. And for some reason, I have felt it deeper and more cutting in me than ever! I have cried more hours than I can count. I suppose you go through a mourning period and I just held my little boy in my heart and soul, remembering him before this illness manifested. I love my son no matter what and as he is, but I just kept thinking of my little one when nothing was weighing on his mind, but which toy to play with and what TV show to watch!
He just doesn't want to be on meds, but he isn't okay without them! As I type this, he is still in the hospital. The Clozaril isn't working like it did before and he hates taking it. He is at the point where he says he will take them, but comes out and stops them. He takes off all night long and comes back in very bad shape. Again, this brings me to what I will always believe until the day I die...we need more healing places where we can not only try meds, but test for everything and utilize holistic and spiritual therapies!
I pray people like Glenn Close, Joe Pantoliono, and others with fame help us fight for it all! Glenn has started an organization www.bringchange2mind.org and Joe www.nkm2.org ; I will link them here on my blog! I wont give up, ever!! So I am asking for prayers and love to be sent our way...I have Joe on every healing list I know! I continue to pray for what is best for my son's sweet soul!!!
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Thank you so much for being the caring, understanding mother that you are. Your son will be in a good place at some point, and he will be so grateful for that kind of love. Accepting my own parents' lack of understanding has been one of my most difficult hurdles.
Thank you, Amanda! God bless you :)
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